What DO You Want From Me.....

  "I AM the Lord! That IS my name....and I will not give my glory to anyone else; I will NOT share my praise with carved idols.  Everything I prophesied came true......and NOW I will prophecy AGAIN!  I will tell you the future BEFORE it happens!"
 

"Sing a  new song to the Lord! Sing His praises, all you who live in earth's remotest corners!  Sing, O Sea!  Sing, all you who live in distant lands beyond the sea!........Isaiah 42:8-10

Hi Daddy,

Thank you for being faithful, no matter how I react toward others!  Thank you for being constant, unchanging and mindful that I am prone to loose my way. 

Daddy, I have trouble at times comprehending cruelty..what to do or not to do.  I find myself asking, "What in the world DO you want me to do?"  At times, often lately, I find myself frustrated that you ask me / us to be here and NOT give in to our emotions.  Which, by the way, are justified ...most of the time on some level....in the worlds view.  But your view points of things are so different. 

At times I get confused that you are God and yet we are supposed to attempt to comprehend such "out of this world" thinking. "HOW am I supposed to be at peace!?!" is what my soul screams out; and just as quickly, your Spirit says "Peace, be still....I have not left you, don't act as though I have."

When I allow you, your Spirit, to embrace my weary soul and grieve with me....right here with me - all alone, then the me becomes we and I am no longer all alone.  WE are here..in the quietness of chaos passed.  It is now that I feel the stillness and hear the lovely birds; now I realize all IS well. It isn't perfect....but the perfect one is here with me.  AND I AM....able because you dearly love me. 
I know no one else will EVER be capable of loving me like you do; so I must forgive, because I cannot love anyone else like this either! 

"What do you want", you reiterate my pitiful, exasperated plea......for me to be faithful.  But not faithful to the brokenness of man......faithful to the fullness of YOUR faithfulness....by trusting that if all the mountains crumble into the sea...there will still be you and me.... And yes, I hear the tune of the song and know the lyrics well.  So we sit here and listen to them in the stillness.....

So if I say to you tomorrow.....take my hand child come with me......it's to a castle I will take you.....where what to be they say will be.....
 

In front of me is the rough draft painting I have been working on for the shelter.  I have been studying Isaiah 40-45 in preparation.

Wow, what clarity.   I KNOW what you desire me to do:  Trust.  Believe...your promises.... that you carry me close to your heart and that my sad days are gone, as you said in Isaiah 40.  You also promise,because I wait "upon you", that "you alone" will renew my strength; I will run without being weary and walk without ever becoming faint.   

You, Dad, are holding me by your very own right hand.  So, despised as others can attempt to entice me to feel, I will not be afraid; because LOOK.....you are on your way :)  I see that all the rest is empty foolishness and worthless in comparison to what you see, and you say nothing can harm me here.

But that isn't what I see most clearly.  What is crystal clear to me at this moment is this fact: because any harm formed against me will be blocked by you alone, I must freely forgive those who mean me harm....So I do....what else would I do.  AND pray:

Our Father, who are in heaven hallowed be thy name.  Thy kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven.  Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our debts as we forgive our debtors.  Lead us not into temptation but deliver us from the evil one; for yours is the power and the glory for ever and ever Amen.

So if you wake up with the sunrise....and all your dreams are still as new....and happiness is what you need so badly....girl, the answer lies with you.........
 

Kisses,
C

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Look Deeper......

Good Morning Dad,

Thank you for this beautiful Presidents Day, for providing the beauty of the blue sky, chilling fresh air, warmth of the sun to sear our surface and the cascading melodies of your chirping whimsy to add dimension to life.

I pour out my gratitude for your protection of our hearts, within our homes. I lift up the perplexities of others and I ask that their troubles receive your mercy; and that your grace help them be reconciled to your peace. Then, that those relationships make their moments richer and when face to face they realize you’re there.

You are not far away and untouchable, how inconceivable that would be! You are here with us; you are in us, all around us. You’ve layered our lives with your goodness, it is here every moment we live our life. Your loving–kindness is unchanging; Eden is not hidden, it is our home. Only those desiring to cast shadows have been led outside your courts for a time. The Cherubim speak truth to guard entry, the conflict comes to steer them away. The sound of joy frightens the unknowing, they mistaken the cheer and throw stones to scare away. 
 
Lead us this day with your goodness; let the blind eyes have a glimpse of your thrown. Allow the deaf ears to hear the celebration, for their frail weak conditions to have a hope and a dream. Be the inspiration to their countenance; be the warm embrace for which they deeply long. Be the answer to their gripping question, be their savior in the midst of their storm.

Be unto all a strong tower, be the light above all that we might truly see. Be the mighty ship upon an angry ocean and the life line which hoists them into the safety of your hull. Be the Sheppard for those lost and running; have the net ready, set before they greatly fall. Speak very clearly; for your words bring us courage, they give wisdom and discernment as they guide us your way.

Help us to not think that we don’t need others; help us to see we create your image and real form. My face is your face and it needs their complexion; without them your features are translucent to eyes. Without their eyes, my sight will be limited; without their lips my mouth is only partly formed. Without their voice, I cannot reach your highest octaves; without their arms my wrap won’t reach around.

Without their legs my height can't see what’s coming; without their energy I cannot make the climb. Without their feet, your precious things won't get delivered; without their hearts beat, your blood will not properly flow. Without their lungs, my breath get exhausted; without their beauty, I’m an unnoticed spec in the sand.

But even right now, I see moments which move me; the times we come together, like a kaleidoscope by your hand. I watch as our form ever-changes with significance; while the winds and the gravity keep us moving, keep us safe. I pray that in your time we all come together. The one piece that is missing is willing to be seen and shine. Not for themselves, but for the crown of Your glory: The Lord of Lords, Jesus Christ, our reigning King and your delight. He is in you and together we are in you – not for the least, for the least to realize. 

I pray that today all these grand things start turning, for the dust and the ashes to start crumbling and divide. For the great walls between us to crack and to scatter; may all life be found in your glory, tightly wrapped. May your jewels be protected from the fall of the mighty; may we feel the ground shaking as the boulders begin to bounce.  Instead of fear, may we dance in your daylight, Hosanna is reigning and the force of darkness fell. The angels are swarming to protect while they’re fighting. Be not afraid in the force of His fury, it is for your good that they leave you alone. Do not turn to runaway after, for the journey is a precarious and they need to come back. 

Today, look all around you, for you are in the promised land.  He is there to work with you; to use you, not out there but right where you stand.  Stop chasing tomorrows and reciting past moments.  Right now there is a present that you'll miss if you don't look.  Look at the face that is longing and been given; for there is your promise - just look deep through the eyes of God.  Pray that they see you, for God is surely within them.  When they look deep into your face they will find Him, for it will be the Lord that they really see.

This is my hope and I know He is faithful; so today I’m looking deep, being honest and finding peace.

For the love of our Great God~

Kisses,

C

Look Deep, Be Honest, Find Peace © groups starting up again the end of March - can't wait to see you again!

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Soul Mate..I Found You!

From pages 123-125 dated January 6, 2013

Good Afternoon Dad;
I am sure that you know exactly all the puzzle pieces you are bringing together - I also know you know their order, sequence, reason and the proper direction in which they are to be cast.  So many things are ebbing, rising, falling and washing back into the whole.  Enlighten me as I lay them before you; rise up and give me a peak upon which to surf for a time.  Not in my own power, but surely steady on your plain.  Take me to your shoreline and hydrate those of your choice my Lord.  For you alone know our deepest yearning, how to answer those whom call out to your and you alone are their ever present help in their time of  trouble.  We are your helper, perfectly created to be one with you. 

You remind me constantly that just as you formed Adam and desired him to have a perfect mate, you first loved Adam and were the perfect mate for his soul.  We are not lost from your sight, we just are not looking for you. Sometimes I wonder if you wanted Adam to choose you as the perfect mate.  You did give him the opportunity, but your word states that he looked around and didn't find anything suitable.  It was only then that you formed someone for him to love just as you loved him.  You said it was not good for man to be alone. You made us just as you imagined and then formed us into something of yourself to love.  All we have to do is love you in us and love others as we love our self, or you in us.   

Let's just rest in this ebb and flow for awhile and let His cool waters wash over us....  You can find the rest of the story posted on Journey of the Kaleidoscope Butterfly - The Tailor's Perfect Suit

Kisses C

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You Are Mine!

Butterfly Journal
Start Date December 4, 2012

Continuation from etched brown leather journal (not yet entered)

December 4, 2012
Page 1-4

Isaiah 51 verse 16 And I I have put my words in your mouth and hidden you safe within my hand.  I planted the stars in place and molded all the earth.  I am the one who says to Israel,  "You Are Mine."





Each time I see the word I Am written in the bible it is as if God is stating another attribute or pixel of His image for me / us to see Him more clearly.  I AM.........the One....who says to Israel ......"You are mine."

This is my paraphrase of the verses starting with 17 of chapter 51:

Get up! Arouse yourself!  Don't lay down any longer!

I am not the one holding you back or down any longer; you have feared and seen distortion long enough; there is nothing left to fear! 

 

You are literally all alone, you have exhausted every wise counsel and man made support so give it up!  That hasn't worked for you; all you gained and all they had to offer was desolation and destruction ~ or should I say famine and sword.   Did you find ANY sympathy or comfort? If so, is it still there?

 

Don't worry, look around they are caught up in their own webs, which I have ensnared them in to hold them back.  I have poured out my fury upon them and am rebuking them as we speak! But you must listen to me child:  you are filled with trouble which causes you to be in a stupor and not able to correctly discern or be wise. 

 

I am the Lord and I'm telling you, "I care for you........I care...for all my people and you are no different.  In your heart and mind I want you to see something:  See me literally taking the cup of fury, this terrible cup that you are holding with your own hands.  See....you are giving it to me to drink.  I am receiving it and drinking it.....don't turn away till you watch me drink the very last drop for you.  Notice; really look, every last drop is gone - see? There is nothing to take back; I consumed it all.  Now because I consumed it, MY blood is spilling out and it will chase down the ones who tormented you.....trampled your poor souls into the ground.  That wasn't enough for them though, after they oppressed you till you laid down, then they walked upon your backs as if you were less than them!

 

 

cross reference study notes for John specifically: John 17:11 Now I am leaving the world, and leaving them behind, and coming to you.  Holy Father, keep them in your own care - all those you have given me - so that they will be united just as we are, with none missing. John 18:11  But Jesus said to Peter, "Put your sword away.  Shall I not drink from the cup the Father has given me?"

 

 

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Bound in Safety, Free to Love

Good morning Daddy, 

Help me to be for you in all ways ~ never against you

You are God ~ you are holy, pure ~ just and mighty

You created the heavens and set the earth in its space

You alone stand in the position of ultimate power

And you alone love all, even the unjust, alike 

You perfectly balanced darkness by adding to it

You didn’t diminish....you merely gave it light

You alone set heaven above the ocean

You alone combined day into night

 

You are our Lord, God….The Almighty

All of the angels take charge when you talk

You alone give breath to all creatures

And you alone reconciled where there is life

 

You are the ultimate, the highest…..Hosanna

You eternally uphold all that will be

For you alone have the power to destroy things

But in your power you love and protect

Yes! You have the authority, but choose to give mercy

This alone shows the truth of a creator filled with grace

The difference between the Father and the fiend of destruction

So let us see their distortion and believe as we seek 

 

You are the God who loves His creation

You sent your son to live among all men

You and He are One in your Spirit…..

The Spirit upholds, empowers and protects

When Love is alive, no fear can over power

For there is no power over yours ….only less 

When you are for us, all things must diminish

For you uphold all in the clutch of your hand

Your arm is not short; so we know they can’t reach us

To you it is child’s play……your children can’t see

In tender compassion you show us to inform us

That your understanding surpasses our things

 

You are kind, you are strong, you are gentle and our tower

You lift us up, give us light….set us high

You, in your wisdom, give us plans to go after

Then you teach us, empower us and protect our flight 

Today is a new day and it’s filled with your lessons

So many mysteries……….so little time

Please let me learn and enjoy every second

For I know your plans are good…. not for harm

No matter how I see you, whether full or parts missing

You know my heart and you’re no lesser God

 

Be glorified by the faith of your children

Gather us Daddy….. underneath your great wings

You have surely called and to you we gather

No longer are we scattered, we’re not vapors….. we are sand!

Roll into the age with your awesome body

Raise us up, let us peak…. then flow through all our life

Not of ourselves, but empowered with your Spirit

For we too are One, as your Son did request

 

You are the faithful, the true God….Our Father

You wrote the history of all beginning and end

All things culminate in the cross road of the journey

Pulled from the past into your eternal life 

So today, I believe and I will not be mistaken

Bring me light; on your shoulders set me high

Now from your depths explain these things to me

Tell me the stories of your life and love

Help me to share in truth with compassion

For that is your hope; that we hear and believe

Thank you for planning such magnificent moments

Thank you for empowering my seconds to share

 

Please, dear Lord Jesus, let my time be for your glory

Where I am weak, give me cover so they see greater things

You are my hope, you’re my song, you’re my vision…..

No longer seeing sugar plums…. yet fantastic all the same

I must move on from the lesser things I was built on

I want all your will to replace what I’ve been told

My life was sold; I thank you for the purchase….

The thief spoke of stories which distorted what I knew

You won my soul; you’re the victor and my Hero!

Given the glory taken, that it may return seven fold 

You deserve honor; the truth and all believing…

You deserve children…… generations with your name

You deserve to be seen in your fullness……

You deserve one voice to be calling out in praise

You deserve to hear us shout out to the heavens…..

Using your authority to bind the lesser things…….

You deserve to have us eternally as one body……

No longer bringing sacrifice; bringing honor to your name

Give us power and control…just like you love us

Teach us balance, teach us mercy, teach us how to get along…

Please…today, Lord God Almighty come into us; bindus safely….. loose your love 

This is my prayer today ~ in honor of Our Christ…..

Kisses,

Candace

 

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What's Great About God

August 2012 Journal
In the front cover she has written:
You can not know what I know, unless you go where I go.
Pick up your cross and follow me.

This is from Candace's present journal, dated August 22, 2012. 

 Good peaceful morning to you Dad -
It is incomprehensible that you are in heaven, yet right here with me, inside me, beside me.  How unfathomable is it that you can fill me with peace while simultaneously propelling all the passionate bursts of desire to accomplish unimaginable feats.

Only through you can I be hurt and not hate, be in pain and still think about how others have deeper needs.  Because you meet all my needs, love me without fail and provide comfort / healing from the inside out, my heart is protected enabling my mind to be liberated from lesser thoughts.

You are God above, yes! But you are also just as real in me. You are the beginning and the end - enabling vision where my eyes can't yet see.  You are boldly gentle, the lover who reedems.  In you there is no shame, no shifting shadows, so I run to grasp liberty. 

Let us hide ourselves no more; let us never cease to praise:  Our Father who art in heaven, who died right her on earth, who rose up and freed His Spirit to pass beyond what we can comprehend.

Today, when we see the sunrise, may it's light penetrate and embrase.  Even for this one moment, may we feel Him reach out and touch our face. Remember how deeply He loves us - even if we don't fully believe.  Let's listen to the winds of harmoney and ask of the things we perceive.

May the sounds of nature guide us, as they sing in one accord.  Between all these things He will answer, for He alone is our God and Lord.

We are blessed to have found these moments - May He be glorified as we receive breath and exhale!

Kisses,
C

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I do not want you to talk toward, even praise me and then not allow me to interact with you.

Praising me simply is a way of getting you to see me, so I can be real to you.

How can you believe I am real if you can't find me?  Praising me is seeking for where I am. When you come to the end of what you know (and I know you comprehend by what you say about me) then I can reveal different things about myself.

Just as you were saying yesterday - It isn't about me, it's about you.  Do you think I created everyone simply to have an audiance yelling up at me telling me how great I am?  Do you believe I am a narcissistic God? I know the answer to that, it was a rhetorical quesiton.

The only reason I desire an audiance is to talk to each of you, hear about your thoughts, dreams, cares and concerns.  Then tell you the deeper things involved in you as well as all things in motion.  It is about both of us, but without you guys I don't have the fullness of my desires met.

How Great would it be to only be God of me? (again rhetorical)  And yet, at times that is as large as people desire to go.  I simply desire them to have a GREAT life - not a satisfying life. 

So I meet their needs and satisfy them, then I give them TOO much and show them where they can serve others with that much.  This is where it get GREAT!  This is where we are intertwined, feeding through the fabric of all things.  This is what I desire to be the God of.......GREAT things!

So, praise me, YES! But then listen for my delight.  You will hear how you found me - as I welcome you into my house.  We will sit her together and laugh about the days, plan extraordinary moments, then be on our way.

I'm delighted to be your God and the One who holds all things.  I find you all so precious - and that is a blessed thing!

Go in Peace
With Love
Kisses,
C

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And His Bride Says Come!

From the Pour Your Heart Out journal:




Hi Daddy:



I want to stop all my busyness to write with you. I cannot imagine a more advantageous motive or focus to spend these precious moments on.



Teach me how to be personally carefree as I use all my wisdom, understanding and skills to care for others. Help me as only you are able, to seek you with my heart soul and might; but with no anxiousness in any way.



I know that you love me and are merciful and full of grace for me. I thank you for that. My life is yours daddy and you gave so generously of your highest and best gifts so that I could live and be one with you as my Lord and Savior Christ is one with you.



Thank you, Christ, for giving your life in the same way that God your father gave His love. I am so appreciative for the power of your Holy Spirit who endlessly searches all my ways to perfectly empower me, in every need, at any time. I know this is not only for me, but also for all those in need, whom you bring across my path to care for in their time of need.



God, only you know my true ways and only your ways are the true ways I desire to go. I am depending on you for every single thing in my life. I am really helpless and hopeless without you Father. But praise be to you, in the name of Jesus Christ, I am made as high as need be, as wise as can be and as successful as your provision makes me. All this for the perfection of your will to be carried out on earth as it is in heaven.



I claim all this truth because it is Christ’s and I am yoked by the spirit to Him. I am led in your ways securely, all the length of my days. Received in full by your faithfulness, I forgive all things which come against me. My promises are kept because you keep me, while you lighten my burdens knowing my own strength.

You tempt me not while you teach and provide. Your arm is not short, so I must not reach beyond. When I focus on a need, not the fullness at the time, my eyes perceive a space in which my emotions take root to rise. I envision what is not there, so my mind and ears seek to find. In busyness I plant lesser things, simply weeds which distort your ground.



You strengthen my eyes to see the shoots which will sprout from your seed. You teach me how to reach and to rise, to see your produce with my very own eyes. You alone send the rain, wind and sun; you protect each and all that has life. I proclaim that my faith will be full, even though it appears evil may thrash.



In me there is no lesser thing, for I am wholly consumed into you. You, as well, fill me up and your power spills over and beyond. The glory that your presence brings is the light and the salt of the earth. May it honor your holy righteous name, as a crown I may lay at your feet.



With your iron scepter clutched in your hand, and your feet secured as you rest, “Come Almighty Lord Jesus Come, for we wait”, says your beautiful bride.



Kisses,

C



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With appreciation to Felicia Scott, Editor